GLaDos is still alive as well (props to whoever gets that).

But yeah, Hyper... nice to see you are getting things generally going your way for once. I guess we can just hope it snowballs or something. ^_^

^ I'm not even angry
Even though you broke my heart and killed me
and torn me into pieces
and threw every piece into a fire

I want mah cookie. ^^

Well, I do have these left over from Regal's rather dead RP...

Good to see you still kicking.

Enjoy the NG life.

Man, I seriously just want to say, f*ck this sh*t. As expected, nothing goes smoothly for me. So, I tried playing the nice card for a while and the results? Same as always. No believed that I could be a better person. Everyone still thought of me the same way as I had always been. But hey, that's what I get for going to a private university. Everyone maintains a one track, f*cked up state of mind of superficiality, stupidity, and immaturity. They still have the high school mind set. Sorry, high school f*cking ended. You're in f*cking college now, grow the f*ck up.

So I come here today, feeling worse than I ever have. I walk around everyday and see people and greet them, but I feel absolutely nothing from it. There's no emotion, there's no sense of friendship. I hate that feeling. I feel so alone here, even with the one best friend I have, I feel so alone. I go to a place where I feel that I have no importance in anyone's life, that I'm not needed. And it hurts a lot. It's not like I want anyone's pity... this is just how I feel. Even if I said this to them now, no one would really care. I hold my feelings about this type of thing back because people will just think I'm whining about nothing. I carry a tough guy exterior because that's the only way I know to allow myself to carry on at this place. I want to just quit and f*cking leave, but I know that won't change anything and I gain nothing from it. But when does it stop?

I just want to be cared about. Who doesn't? I can't find that here. I'm just another blip on the motherf*cking radar. I'm tired of feeling this. People don't even invite me to go anywhere. They automatically think I'm going to say no just because I've denied a couple of times in the past. Nobody even f*cking offered to take me out dinner on my birthday, which is f*cking sad. I almost had to eat cafeteria food. Like, come on, show me a little more heart than that. Not like I wanted anything big, but it would've been nice for someone to just take me out and just chill with me. I couldn't even get that. That's how much this place f*cking sucks. No one even f*cking bothers to get to know me. I have weird quirks, I get overexcited about certain issues and sometimes I'm just blunt and too the point. Sometimes I rub people the wrong way, but does anyone try to understand my reasoning? No. It's just a surface level thing an they leave it at that.

So, enough of my blog-eqsue sh*t. That's what's up and this is how I feel right now.

Hmm.

Well, at least you have the a social life online?

I mean, that might not sound like much of a consolation, but I rather enjoy and pride myself with the life I have online. And meeting the members a few weeks ago really helped.

Sorry you are having things rough, and hope things smooth out.

Good luck. Be strong.

I feel more or less the same way.
But after years, you kinda get used to it.

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[spoiler]That's pretty much why I'm making sure to study the crap out of me so I can enter a public university. That's my biggest objective right now: get away from high-school mentality.[/spoiler]