(660.) Guardian 01/03/07 1:56 AM - 2:01 AM
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I'm not sure why she does it
Or if she really does
Sometimes her words are so empty
Yet she still puts her heart into them
In hopes that somehow blood will course through them
And bring the words right off the screen
She's just bleeding all over nothing
Making sacrifices to a God she doesn't believe in
Who may not even exist
But she's trying
And I admire her for that
The amount of faces I see
That smile back at her
Astounds me
Once we had a conversation
Where her words weren't empty
And I think she thought I was one of them
One of the downtrodden orphans of life she took under her wings
She realized something in me,
I'm not sure what.
But she saw it
And her words to me are empty
I fear at times,
that I am what she shields the world from
That great evil we all tremble before
No one's trembling before me
But so many tremble after

(661.) To My Daughter, 01/03/07 2:02 AM - 2:03 AM
=---------------------------------------------------=
when you arrive I will make you a crown of stars
And teach you that you are queen of all you see
But you must never touch
Without permission

(662.) To My Son, 01/03/07 2:03 AM - 2:06 AM
=---------------------------------------------------=
when you arrive I will make you a blanket from my dreams
And you will keep warm when you are young
Tie it round your neck to show you are a hero when you are older
And you will sleep with it till you grow old
But you must mend it with your own dreams
Make sure it still keeps you warm
Someday it will warm your son

(663.) Which Girl Shall It Be? 01/03/07 2:07 AM - 2:08 AM
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I realized,
As I looked over all the one-of-a-kind designs
They were all the same
With little variances between them
I still couldn't find the one I was looking for
So I kept browsing

(664.) For Future Reference 01/03/07 2:09 AM - 2:12 AM
=---------------------------------------------------=
I apologize,
You don't deserve what I've done
But I have done it
And that can never
ever
be undone
This should not be a poem,
but I'm keeping it here
so one day
when I'm older
I'll read it
And apologize
once more

(665.) Old And Decrepit 01/03/07 2:13 AM - 2:16 AM
=---------------------------------------------------=
I want my mind to grow older than my body
So that I may still talk
when I can no longer move
Tell them not to do what I have done
Tell them how to live their lives
Tell them of all the world I saw
And still be able to realize I'm not talking to anyone

(666.) How Stereotypical 01/03/07 ? - ?
=---------------------------------------------------=
Is it wrong of me,
to want to be him?
Just to prove them all wrong....

(667.) She May Never Read Of This, Let Us Hope She Does 01/03/07 2:20 AM - 2:25 AM
=---------------------------------------------------=
I am entranced with the thought of you
But repulsed by the touch
So I become a cur
And treat you odiously
How far I truly have fallen

661. was interesting and i took it as very slightly wry (?). Which added to the enjoyment.

663. was excellent.

...... and while my comments are certainly lacking... i enjoy reading your posts here. i just never felt like mentioning it. later.

I really liked "To my Son" #662
The idea of passing on dreams to one's children and them passing them on to their children is one that stirs things in our souls. I like how you had the dreams as a blanket which can bring warmth and also make the son a hero. And also the fact that the dreams aren't perfect either, and can use repair (the son's dreams actually mending those of the father). Nice poem. Very thought-provoking.

Thanks a lot, both of you for commenting. It's been a long time since anyone's come in here and said anything.

Wow alt..I have to say I'm incredibly impressed. And I've only gotten through around 100. I have to say this collection makes my few poems look paltry in comparision. I did have a question though. It might just be the way I was reading it, but your very first poem seems unfinished as if there were more thoughts you wanted to tac on to it. I might just be weird though. But yea...Really impressed. Gonna finish reading it all later.

I'm sure your poems are just as good if not better than my poems. Was that question an actual question, or a joke about that my first poem is numbered #2? Either way, no, I've nothing else more to add to my poems. I write my poems on the spot, everytime. Perhaps only 1 or 2 poems out of all of them have I ever come back and reworked.

(668.) The home I Shall Build 01/15/07 ? - 10:43 PM
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I am only as big as my smallest insecurity
So I will take off this armor
And go out into the world to show my weakness
I will take advice from anyone willing to give it
I will try anything once
Take nothing more than I need
Leave with nothing less than gained knowledge
Teach me of your world
I will teach you of mine
Show me where the Earth ends
Then we shall find where it begins together
I'm not here to impress
Merely to watch the world
I'll take my time
Not yours
Never shall I live on borrowed time
Borrowed life
or borrowed money
Make my own world
Live in it
And welcome anyone who wants to come in
From my own depths will I build this home
A home of love
of dreams
of lessons
of life
of me

(669.) Soft Flesh 01/18/07 6:58 PM - 7:00 PM
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Her flesh was softer than mine
Her words more callous
Freckles dotted her nose
I so longed to connect each one with my finger
She wouldn't allow me to touch her
So I never asked to

(670.) Continued At A Later Date 01/18/07 7:01 PM - 7:02 PM
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Would you be so kind as to move?
I seem to be late to work
We won't be going anywhere if I can't drive
Walk with me, we will talk
You sit there
I stand here
We'll continue our lecture later

(671.) 01/18/07 7:06 PM - 7:07 PM
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I love you,
I always will
My words aren't near as strong
As my actions
But my actions would scare you
And you don't want to read my words
So I'll write them for me
Because I know how much they mean

(672.) Falling Stars 01/25/06 2:56 AM - 2:56 AM
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I keep jumping from falling star
to falling star
Because I'm having too much fun
Always crashing down

(673.) Consolidating The Library 02/06/07 11:25 PM 11:31 PM
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Three thousand little lifetimes
Spread out over eight minuscule days
Building up like bodies after the bombing
Each one told me a different tale
From being born to multiply
To dying to see tomorrow
I didn't hear every speech
I closed their mouth from time to time
I can't handle all those worlds
Just all the world
Give me time
Give me reason
And I'll tell you
The season
In which I'll die
But only if you listen
To a lifetime

(674.) Him There 11:32 - 11:3
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He screamed some more
His fist raised
He looked into my eyes
I never flinched
never blinked
He rubbed his hand in pain afterwards
I just stared at him
Calm
With all those words in my eyes
That would shatter his soul if I spoke them
And he knew
He saw something in my eyes
And he knew
He would never make that mistake again
And I knew
I was better than him

(675.) Smarter 02/09/07 1:37 A.M. - 1:44 A.M.
=---------------------------------------------------=
I calmly shared my words with him
He wanted to scream so badly
But he cared too much of what random people thought
He didn't want to make a spectacle of himself
Just last week he preached to me about not caring
About how others viewed him
I apparently don't know my father
I'm the closest person to him
But he swears I don't know him
I've spoken to his ex-wives
His mother
His siblings
His daughter
My brother who might as well be his first child
And they all agree with me
But ofcourse,
None of us know him
He is the universally misunderstood
Martyr for his beliefs
He's playing his film
From a projector onto the wall
But he's putting a stain glass window
Inbetween the two
Apparently it's our fault
For not getting to know him
"I AM SMARTER THAN YOU."
He screams at me
I'm nearly 18 years younger
Than he was when he first made all those mistakes
It's not as if I learned his lesson
Just today either
I knew when I was 5
"Mom, I will never be my father, or my brother."
I remember saying that to her
I remember her smiling
He's more experienced
but sometimes experience doesn't mean
a thing
if you don't know how to use it
I know for a fact he'd make the same choices
As he did back then
if he could
But he's too old
too unattractive
too hated
To have the same power
So he claims he's learned his lesson
"I'll never make those mistakes again."
He didn't view them as mistakes
I know he still doesn't
I know sometime you're going to read this
And you're going to hate every word
Well, I'm enjoying every second of your agony
Why am I so malicious?
Because you're so heartless in things
You only say half the things you do
Out of worry of us knowing the truth of who you are
Just last week he preached to me about not caring
We've been over this
I've been over the facts
And I'm smarter than you

(676.) It Was Planted On My Birthday 02/14/07
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Will my memory out live the trees?
Will my children tell my tales to theirs?
Or will I die out a mortal?
Living my short life
And nothing more
I want not the popularity of history
Or the glory of a memory
I just want some man to be happier
Some odd lifetimes down the line
Thanks to the toil of my mind
The sweat of my soul
Give me not your fame
Only let me give you my legacy

(677.) Rippling Kisses 02/14/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
I kisser her,
In a moment of love
There was no one there
No memories besides our own
I will never forget the look in her eyes
But there's nothing else
Her taste rests in my soul
Like a stone resting at the bottom of a lake
Skipped across the surface
Leaving no trace of the interaction
But sending ripples in my soul

(678.) <02/14/07
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There's a certain aspect to them
An endless well of life constantly flowing
But it's hidden away
like a brook deep within caverns
No man will wash in it's youthful ambrosia
For it's a river inside of his temple
It's not private
Just not in public
You'll never drink from the eternal though
Because you won't get to know him

(679.) <02/14/07
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He looks so goofy
lip synching
Words from the cords

(680.) <02/14/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
They're holding hands
Exchanging words
Parting ways
Holding more hands

(681.) <02/14/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
Playing sad songs on no instrument
That make depressing sounds
Take lessons
Teach yourself
Just for the love of happiness
Play a cheerier song

(682.) <02/14/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
Won't you please believe me
Trist is earned
But you never gave me a chance for any
No, you won't believe me will you.

(683.) <02/14/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
I sat in fire
To see if it burned
I listened to what others said
But I just had to feel it
for myself
And it burned

I stayed beneath the water
to see if my lungs would collapse
if what they said was true
They were right
and I choked out the last bit
of water

I fell in love
to see what it was like
I listened to what others said
nothing said twice
no definitions
it was glorious
but it ended
and what they said came true
and my heart collapsed
and it burned

(684.) <02/14/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
She stood between me and my reflection
a warm smile
porcelain skin
forceful touch would crack her spirit
And that body could barely hold in such a grand soul
She was a god draped in humanity
Each inch worth more than my whole
Dancing around the room
out of my sight
leaving me forelorn
i saw myself
every useless inch
the meaningless whole
rough hands
weathered eyes
and an unworthy love
I spoke out
"Thank you,
for being you,
and loving me."

(685.) <02/14/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
I don't think you're beautiful
I think you're pretty
But not beautiful

I don't think you're amazing
I think you're interesting
But not amazing

I don't think I want to be your lover
I think I'd like to be your friend
But not your lover

(686.) <02/14/07
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Love is an excuse for logic to fail
Teenagers use it all the time
Rarely anyone knows it's true meaning
And those who do
are ficional

(687.) <02/14/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
Sad sons played
for an apathetic crowd
That claims to see God
In oil stains,
grilled cheese,
cracked glass,
and their own reflection

(688.) <02/14/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
he came back
full of false truths
and he filled the rest
full of hope

(689.) <02/14/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
You're smarter than that
You're chasing love,
but you know better
You've got your entire life in front of you
But you have a different boy every week
Tasting of their lust
I've been down to the water
I've been drunk off that sweet river
With her godlike taste on my lips
But the river from which you sip,
is poisoned by lust
You're better than this
You're beautiful
You know who you are
And you know better.

(690.) <02/14/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
he was speaking in a language
that only men such as him spoke
And he translated it over again in his head
And again
A language of numbers
That explain all of life
I read what he wrote
And he translated again
Into his own language
That none of us knew

(691.) <02/14/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
There's a place beyond your side
And far beyond mine.
Where neither matters
And gardens grow
Meet me there
We will disscuss the world
And smell the flowers

(692.) <02/14/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
Fear not the sleeping dreamers
They will wake and ther dreams melt away
Take not lightly the man who dreams waking
He dreams with both eyes open to the world
He will never awake to falsities
Only live to the fruition of his dreams


(693.) <02/14/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
I will walk on pathways made of stars
Peering over lakes of black
And breathing in false air
I'm in the dead city
Someday they'll walk on me

(694.) My Privilege 12:09 AM - 12:12 AM
=---------------------------------------------------=
I shall eat a single apple
And call it dinner
I never heated the food I said I would
More important things to attend to

I will do what I want with my life
And call it my right
It's my world after-all
Isn't it?

I'm not sure what my life is anymore.
But I'll call it a privilege
Treat it as such
And take it for granted

(695.) It Was So Depressing 02/27/07 10:14 PM - 10:17 PM
=---------------------------------------------------=
Death walked slowly towards us
She reached out her hand for me
I grabbed it
But it was already cold
The look in her eyes told me to pull
Please in the name of everything I hold dear
Pull
I did
But she didn't move
Her wings crumpled beneath the blows
Mine too weak from battle to help
And I pulled
And pulled
And kissed her
And held her to my chest
So she could hear my life still coursing
And I cried to death
"Take me instead, please oh please, take me instead."
Her hands were cold
Her cheeks were cold
Her heart was silent
But her eyes begged me to keep trying

(696.) Impress The World? 03/01/07 12:54 AM - 12:57 AM
=---------------------------------------------------=
She pointed out that I commented on my own speech
As if constantly writing notes for my autobiography
And questioned herself,
perhaps he is trying to impress someone?
no, you have impressed everyone you could ever want to
Then why?
Because I would rather impress myself
and make my mother proud
Than impress the world
And she is proud no matter what I do,
so that leaves only one thing left
Impress myself

(697.) Open Flames I Share With You 03/01/07 12:57 AM - 1:00 AM
=---------------------------------------------------=
Our joy is an open flame
and all others are a hearth
waiting to accommodate
Our sorrow is a never ending glass of water
and others basins waiting to be filled
Share in your burden so that your glass may not break
but do not drown others so that theirs may
Warm others hearts with your happiness
but do not smother them with your flames

(698.) The World Is Too Much With Us? 1:00 AM - 1:07 AM
=---------------------------------------------------=
He said the World is too much with us
And I believe him
For I want all the world to be with me
She said we are our own infinite
That she was part of it
And all was an extension of her
but human logic is flawed in this way
I believe that there is a limit
To infinite
There is a number
that is the highest we can ever achieve
and it is one less
than the lowest
I told her of the religion
Where we are all one
She said she hated religion
I love religion
I want true religion
For in true religion,
I find true life
She called it nothing more than Death Insurance
I call it reassurance
but I shall never know true religion
until it is too late
so I shall work backwards
I will find true life
And then find true religion
But true life for me
is so different for others
Thus their true religion must also be different
I think I speak of spiritual humanism
Least that is what my fore-fathers named it
I call it truth
I want not to hamper anyone's happiness
Ghandi said be the change you wish to see in the world
I live my life on this
I do not impose on others
what I believe to be true
As I said
True life for me
is not true life for all
Truly then,
the world IS too much with us

(699.) My Sentence 03/05/07 10:15 PM - 10:20 PM
=---------------------------------------------------=
I have recieved my sentence
I shall die someday
and go to hell
or be reborn lower on the chain
or cease to be
or many other possible things
each one more depressing than the last
unless I repent
accept blindly what others offer me
drink from cups stained with many lips
poisoned with human greed
but based in human purity
how am I suppose to know the amount of poison?
drink
and know that someday I will die
a second death
or abstain
and die only once

(701.) My Life
=---------------------------------------------------=
X = L
L =((C-F)/(M-l+f)) to the power of ω
C = ΩT
F = t/Ω
M = αN
α = m+i
m = -Ω/(T-t)
i = -Ω2/(T2-t2)
N = -l
l = (ΩC)/m
f = mαt

X = Who I Am
L = The sum of my life
C = Correct Knowledge
F = False Knowledge
M = mistakes I've made
l = lesson I've learned
T = truth I am taught
Ω = My Logic
t = falses I am taught
α = my error
N = my naivety
i = others ignorance
m = my own ignorance
f = False lessons learned
ω = Faith

(702.)I'm Too Cocky 03/06/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
You watch me
Label me as weird
As if your opinions
Would somehow cure me
of this wretched disease
you've diagnosed me with
Each and every part of me
I have poured my blood and tears into
crafted from diamonds in my soul
it is a tower of me
you may strike it's walls
but I will mend your scars
to you it looks like a shack
to me it is a home
Just because
you don't udnerstand
the paint splattered on a canvas
doesn't make it any less
than someone's soul
portrayed forever
I am my soul
I show you my soul
Show some gratitude
It's my gift to you

(703.) 300 12:28 PM - 12:32 PM 03/10/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
Any man struck down by injustice
Will go out in a blaze of glory
Brighter than any star
Warmer than any hell
It will burn into the memories of all who witness it
And echo in every ear that hears it's tale
They die, so that you may live
Remember them

704.) Ye Of Little Faith 03/11/07 8:17 PM - 8:20 PM
=---------------------------------------------------=
Countless reasons
Why I ride no zephyr
or follow no rivulet
But only a few
For why I am carried by a tornado
Or lead by an ocean
I shall be guided by your wind
And ride on your river
I have single reason
It is love

(705.) Monsters Here 03/11/07 8:25 PM - 8:28 PM
=---------------------------------------------------=
There's a monster at my door
Who's tapping ever gently
There's a monster in my room
Who's sleeping ever lightly
There's a monster in my soul
Who's living ever shortly
There's a glimmer in their eyes
That's begging for forgiveness

(706.) Anywhere 8:30 PM - 8:34 PM 03/11/07
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He stands at the alter
Looking at the door
The crowd is silent
And she's crying somewhere
Anywhere
But there
He never shows sadness
Only understanding
That he was not good enough
He leaves his love on her doorstep
And departs for somewhere
Anywhere
But there

(707.) I Won't Claim To Be What I Am Not 12:45 AM - 12:52 AM 03/13/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
There's a head resting on my shoulders
And it's putting pressure on my soul
Ernest Hemingway once said:
"Happiness in intelligent people
is the rarest thing I know."
I can see the truths behind their lies
And the ignorance in their intelligence
"Drugs take away the stings
Of everyday life"
Life is hard,
But compared to what?
I found solace in his caring
And his freedom
His soul was noble
And he gave me a chance
So few people give chances
So few people
There was a crab inside his body
Nipping away at his hope
But he kept smiling
Never once did I see his face
Merely his soul
And it was smiling


(708.) Gin 11:05 PM - 11:09 PM
=---------------------------------------------------=
Her face was always pretty
But her love wasn't always clean
She spread a lot of loving
But she was always mean
My old friend Gin kept old men warm
And left some young men out in the storm
Always enticing us to get drunk on pretend
She was just my friend
Never my lust
She never once gained my trust
I saw what she did to other men
Oh cruel woman
My old friend gin


(709.) Just A Little Farther 3:22 PM - 3:34 PM 03/19/07
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(710.) Simple Math 3:35 PM - 3:40 PM 03/19/07
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Two Two
Times
Three Three Three
Equals
Six Six Six Six Six Six

Three Three Three
Times
Three Three Three
Equals
Nine nine nine nine nine nine nine nine nine

And

Two Two
Times
Two Two
Equals
Four Four Four Four

But

One
Times
One
Equals
One

One
Plus
One
Equals
Two Two

And

Two Two
Plus
Two Two
Equals
Four Four Four Four

But


Plus

Equals


(711.) Ghandi ? - 2:15 AM 03/20/07
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Ghandi Stood For Something
Be the change you wish to see in the world

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are shown just how important they are,
and are a little bit skewed.

Thank you Ghandi,
For being the change
You wished to see


(712.) Grave Sleeping 12:15 AM - 12:15 AM 03/21/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
I will lie in my grave
And think of all the things
That I could have been
And cherish all the things I had become


(713.) Read Red Book
=---------------------------------------------------=
Read red book
Bring back black
You're pink with love
And I'm green with envy

(714.) Goodbye Father
=---------------------------------------------------=
Short, simple
No love
Just a handshake
Goodbye father

(715.) The World Is Cold
=---------------------------------------------------=
Hold my hand
I can't feel the world again
And I'm scared

(716.) Not The Movies
=---------------------------------------------------=
A little boy fishes for stars
A lion roared
And the credits rolled on

(717.) Gods Game
=---------------------------------------------------=
You're young
too young for such affairs
surely you realize
that love is a game of the Gods
where lives hang not only in the balance
but also on the scales
Your weight is too much
for you still have your whole life before you
It's not weighing you down
merely lifting you up
You bet your fate when you claim love
fulfill your lust if you must
But stop playing with the Gods
Stay at the base of the mountain
and keep living
you're young still

(718.) On The Limb
=---------------------------------------------------=
I looked out the window
At the autumn trees outside
They were ablaze with sunshine
And battling away the dark clouds

There on a limb
I saw your eyes
The color of your Iris
The jade sea of hope

Once again I could not focus
I was lost in your eyes again

(719.) Days Thoughts
=---------------------------------------------------=
She spread out peanut butter
Chopped 3 bananas
Put the loaves together
And remembered the day

(720.) Blood or Milk?
=---------------------------------------------------=
Should I drink of milk?
Or of blood?
They offer both
I'll drink of milk today
And blood tomorrow

(721.) Drunk On Sobriety
=---------------------------------------------------=
I walked barefoot on fallen petals
and felt your soft skin on my arm
hand's intwined much the same
as our fates
I picked you a flower
And smelled of your perfume
I was drunk off our love
And high off your scent
Then you left
And I stopped picking flowers
I was sober on logic
And grounded by isolation

(722.) Never Be Whole Again?
=---------------------------------------------------=
Here, take a piece of me with you
let it warm you when you are cold
Let it cry when you are sad
It will comfort youw when the world is cruel
It will love you even when you're filled with hate
It will be there when they all leave
It will care when nothing matters
But remember,
without you here
I can never be whole

(723.) Highscores
=---------------------------------------------------=
Pieces fit together perfectly
Clearing the screen
No highscores
But i still put in my name

(724.) Schools of Thought 03/27/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
I have hope in people
But I realize we make mistakes
I suppose that makes me a realist
I know that nothing last forever
And things that do
never seem to be beneficial
I must be a pessimist
But I know if we work together
if we all strive towards perfection
Then we can achieve something worth having
we just need faith in each other
Optimism must be the school I am taught in
Stop classifying
We're all different,
in the same ways
That doesn't mean we're insignificant
It means we are human

(725.) Nature is Natural, Okay John Stuart Mill? 03/27/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
The river never runs just how you want it to
The sky is rarely your perfect shade of blue
Every atom doesn't bond in just the right way
Black just isn't black enough
Perfection is what we strive for
nature is what we settle for

(726.) Someday We'll Get There 03/27/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
Nothing is perfect
Not your God
Not my God
and certainly not us
But that doesn't mean we can't try to achieve it


(727.) You're Worth Something To Me 03/27/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
Religion seems to be the natural way of man
to destroy his own ego
"I am unimportant
so I give unto the lord
all that I am."
I am ignorant
but I refuse to give up
who I am.
Pride is not the issue at hand
More so self-worth

(728.) Oh, I Never Realized 03/27/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
So, I'm pessmistic?
Thank you pot,
This kettle will takes your words to heart.

(729.) Take Take Take 03/27/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
Just because you like it
Doesn't mean I will
Just because you need it to live
Doesn't mean you should take it from me
I will gladly give all I have
if you only ask
But realize that what I have
is for everyone
You can have as much as you need
But please think of others

(730.) Such Heavy Hearts
=---------------------------------------------------=
She spoke
Of pain unincumbered by thought
I felt her words
And buckled under their weight

(731.) Lucidity
=---------------------------------------------------=
I want to close my eyes
Then bleed into your memories
Touch each finer to my thumb
Recounting every moment
Anchoring every thought
To an emotion
An emotion I no longer feel
But in my dreams

(732.) Cesspool 04/08/07 ? - 12:33 AM
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There's a disease inside of me
Correction
I am a walking cesspool of diseases
Not because I am frivolous in my partners
Because my father was
Probably becaue my mother was uncareful
But I finally,
don't blame them
I sit here and accept
that blaming them won't make it go away
oh I realized that long ago
but never accepted
I'm not going to heaven
I'm not going to hell
I will not cease to be
I will not be reborn
I will live forever
In every little thing I touch
In every word I scratch out
God damnit I will
but
but
my name
I will attach it to these works
And I will be vain
Accepting this praise
I wish I could use the excuse of being
merely human
but pinning blame
will do me no good
I forgive anyone
who earnestly asks for my forgiveness
A lot of good that will do them
My words are useless
my thoughts worth no more
than another man's
my pains no greater than any other's
For we are better than this
and we shall learn
and correct ourselves
work towards the future
Start taking responsibility
Accept the sins of those before us
Stand strong
Heads held high
We shall walk into the future
I am a walking cesspool of hope
Correction
I have hope in us.

(733.) The Wall 04/12/07 10:27 PM
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She
standing such as a rock
battered by the sea
Held her ground

He
Beating away at the wall
that imprisoned his people
Was cracking her defenses

I watched them debate
over trivial matters
That spawned more
more
more
personal attacks

The wall fell
and crushed all those that fought it

(734.) Grim Fate We Have Here No? 04/12/07 10:29 PM - 10:35 PM
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Black empty eyes
Light red makeup spewing forth from the darkness
skin
or lack thereof
pale as bone
soft as wind
skinny fingers
grasped firmly
a scythe
edge curved
leading to
sharpness
accuracy
division
splitting even the atoms around it
long legs
to carry the weight of the world
as far as it need go
from
heaven
to
Earth
from
end
to
end
He reaped
Not souls
but will
men lost
in their own
self-defeatings
self-actualizations
egos
he showed them
what lie
just beyond the door
then told them they'd never make it
out
in
anywhere
they were stuck in that quagmire
of life
patterns repeated
souls to free themselves
and the grim man
was not a reaper
but a preacher

(735.) Happiness is a Choice 04/16/07 1:31 AM
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"Happiness is a choice."
(A.) But
(B.) which
(C.) one
(D.) is
(E.) it?

(736.) I'm Too Young For This sh*t 04/16/07 1:34 - 1:35 AM
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I broke it
I picked it up
and it crumbled between my fingers
it's ashes shifted through my palm
I just stared in disbelief
I have destroyed beauty
is there no greater crime?
I'm not ready for this
responsibility
she trusted me
I'm too young for love

(737.) Teacher's Bed 04/11/07
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He taught us of his ways
And he spoke in a gentle tone
His thirst for knowledge
Was beaten only by his love
of teaching
As if every new thought
Spawned seven more
That he had to share
It was like a virus
On his death bed
he spoke gently
as he asked us questions
"Teacher even when you are frail and dying
you thirst for more?"
There is always more to learn.
As teachers,
our ultimate hope
is that students will continue learning
Always.

(738.) This Poem Is Horrible 04/11/07
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The method of our teachers
Working towards the goal
They must treat some as equals
And others as superiors

The method of the students
Working towards the goal
They must treat some as equals
And others as superiors

Never look down your nose
For you'll see nothing but
a mirror

(739.) Believe in Yourself 04/11/07
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Your religion
It seems to be the natural law
Am I right?
It destroys your ego
I've seen it countless times
I climbed the mountain of Maslow's needs
And I held my hand out to you
I pulled up
But your religion dragged you down
You say you are worthless
Give your life unto the lord
Believe in what you want
But please,
Believe in yourself

(740.) Statistics 04/16/07
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I've collected all the data
Found your Z*
Calculated the standard deviation
made clear the true population proportion
Alpha is at .01
And I can tell you with
a 99% confidence interval
You suck

(741.) Horse 04/16/07
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You say you're a stallion
Long mane like black beauty
Hung like a horse
Well,
I talked to your ex
You're a coward
Your beauty is weathered
and dissapears when you get close
And you're hung like
a pony

(742.) Crap 04/16/07
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You smell of it
You wreak of it
You open your mouth and excrete it
You are it
You live it
Breathe it
f*cking sleep in that sh*t
Yet you have a point
But I'll just be ignorant
Smell you
Instead of getting
To know you

(743.) Expectations 04/16/07
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If I don't dress nicely,
why should I expect you to?
You get back what you put in.
That's why I don't expect a goddess
I'm undeserving of beauty
But is it wrong of me to dream?

(744.) Tree 04/16/07
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it dropped a thousand acorns
that all rolled down the hill
not every one made it
but the few that did
hated their father
for leaving them at the bottom
of life

(745.) School 04/16/07
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Each day we came
Each day we prayed
To all the Gods
of the modern age
Hail logic!
Hail Science!
Trully God is here!
And we are studying in him
Nay
We are becoming him

(746.) Peanut 04/16/07
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she shriveled up
in the corner
scared
and ashamed
to see the outside world
when society boiled her for reality
she was too
small
and frail
She just hid in the corner

(747.) Truth 04/16/07
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You speak a thousand lies
But you know them as truths
I speak a thousand truths
But you know them as a lie
Who's the liar here?

(748.) I Give Up 04/16/07
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The flag has flown
The wounds fresh
Filled with salt
Morale is low
My head is lower than hell
The pain greater than God
And I'm done
So why the f*ck do you keep attacking?

(749.) Calculate 04/16/07
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Cold
Scanning
This has all been done before
So he tries something
He tallies the choices
And pulls the trigger

(750.) Washing Feet 04/19/07 10:03 PM - 10:05 PM
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There's a river in my heart
And it's running dry
No one comes to drink of it
No one really cares
Trash lines the banks
Washed up from upstream
It all leads to the ocean
Where it's just lost
Lost on all those other hearts
Who could care less
But someone comes by every so often
Picks up the bottles
Dips in their feet
And thanks God for me being there
My rapids still go strong
Just so I can wash your feet

(751.) Wink Away 04/23/07 12:15 AM - 12:16 AM
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Ah, it would seem the heavens parted
lowered to us an angel
Who winked
And somehow melted away our worries
Push on

(752.) A Single Idea 04/23/07 12:15 AM - 12:37 AM
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He came
With an idea
He planted it firmly in fertile ground
He cut a piece of his heart
And wrapped it round the seed
Others came to water it
To mend it's leaves
To marvel in it's beauty
They hung their ornaments on it's branches
From the moment it was strong enough to bare them
They took comfort in it's shade
and ran their fingers along it's trunk
feeling every indention
Speaking of every carving they made
But who's tree was it?
The man's surely!
He provided it's womb
it's fetus
it's birth
no no no
The first people surely!
They made sure it grew right
protected it from the weather
shielded it from the axe of fate
gaurded it from the world
no no no
It was those that came later!
Sure,
the others grew the idea
but they left it to be tended by those after
who swung from it's branches
long before those of the modern age
who first carved their names upon it's coat
who made sure the tree kept growing
But what about those now?
They helped the hope grow back
Because in their fighting
They never noticed the idea dying right next to them
It's everyones
Those
who gaurded it
lost control of
those
who abused it
And did nothing better than blame the others
Let us band together
Work side by side
And bring springs gentle rays
To wash over
To drown out the apathy that poisons its' roots
To make better
What we all made worse
There will be an idea
Firmly rooted in the ground
To show those that came before
To shade all those that are here
And it's fruit shall feed those who come after
Now if you'll excuse me
I must tend to my obligations

(753.) Anyone? Anyone At All? 04/25/07 3:27 PM - 3:33 PM
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DOES ANYONE SEE WHAT I SEE?
Or am I truly blind to the facts around me?
I must be to have so many people disagree with me.
I want to help so much
I was called a hypocrite today.
Is that what I am?
What does it take to prove what I believe to be true?
I thought time would do that.
Does it truly require that I starve myself to near death?
That's how Buddha got his original disciples.
I can do that
I don't want to though
I want to enjoy my life
just as much as they do
But they have power in their numbers
All I have is my voice,
What my soul tells me is right,
And a mountain of work ahead of me
I don't want to harm anyone
I respect everyone's choices
They just won't respect mine
It's so sad
Man will not learn at times lest he is repramanded
I do not want to crack any whip
But you keep making the wrong choices
Am I really as mature as my elders say I am?
Or am I just as immature as everyone else
Too blinded by youth to see it
I hope I'm not mature
I hope I'm wrong
It would sadden me so greatly if so many are truly wrong

(754.) It Won't Make It Go Away 04/27/07 12:29 AM
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She looked in her reflection
And show someone else
She kept brushing her teeth
Ignoring the stranger she recognized.

(755.) Kind Deeds 04/27/07 12:30 AM
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I apologize
I'll stop bragging
It takes away the glory
I truly am sorry
I will continue my actions
Just limit my words

(756.) And Who Could That Be? 04/30/07 ? - 1:35 AM
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There's a fine line between
That which we can hold
And that which we can grasp
Love is something we can hold
But I fear we'll never grasp it

I am a man(boy) of solitude,
because people are so fragile
Like an antique shop
I will gladly look
But I'm so afraid to touch
Surely my fingers will turn
porcelain to dust

I'm a needy little flower
Not a demanding one though
Water me occasionally
Shower me with sunshine
When the clouds aren't out
And I'll be fine

I'm going somewhere
I'm not fully sure where
Could even be nowhere
But I'll get there

I'm stuck in the muck and the mire
Feeding coal into a self-sustaining fire
The flames may rise
But they'll just die back down

I'll share the warmth
But I'll need a hearth

So will you be a sun?
Warm me with a hug
Shower me with affection
Help me grow

Or just a shovel
Drowning me in soot
Feeding a never-ending flame
Helping me inflate full of emptiness

I'm not looking for love
It can find me
And I will greet it at the door
But it'll have to earn my trust
Before I ever let it in

I hear a rapping
An ever gentle tapping
Is it you at my door?


(757.) Other Languages 05/02/07 11:24 PM - 11:26 PM
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I think we spend our lives
Trying to learn another language
Than that we're born into
Some people study Spanish,
French,
Japanese,
or
any other language such as this
I myself have engrossed myself
in the language of thought
of interaction
Philosophy
Psychology
I'm no expert
But I'm honing my skills
I can pronounce my words right
Sound out each part of my words
Get the meaning across
But while I'm getting better at speaking
I'm still horrible at translating
Does she even like me?

(758.) Holding Hands 05/02/07 11:27 PM - 11:27 PM
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Life isn't all about
holding hands and writing poems
But I wish it were
She told me her life was
So we held hands
And I wrote this poem

(759.) 05/02/07 3:54 PM - 3:55 PM
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A reason for choosing you?
Let me think...
I don't need one.
No metaphors here.
Just, me.
I should hope that's reason enough for any emotion.
No reason at all.

735 = Interesting design.

Thank you.

(760.) I'll Buy That Camera Someday 05/05/07 ? - 4:23 PM
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I tried taking a photograph
Of that pulchritudinous face
But realized
it wasn't her face that I wanted to keep
And I didn't have a camera
That could capture such a sumptuous
soul

(761.) Awaking In Silence 05/06/07 11:21 PM - 11:22 PM
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in those gentles silences
in the abscence of her voice
i worry
my mind makes connections
to feelings i don't understand
axons sending messages
to recievers that should be dead
but fresh emotions awakin
and i am lonely
when all i should be
is thankful

(762.) Myself 05/06/07 11:23 PM
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It's true
everyone has a standard
A Christ
A Buddha
That they strive to be
Is it truly wrong of me
to strive to be myself?

That's me there on that cross
Sitting beneath that tree
Dwelling in the abstract
Of lines dividing into trinity

There's a gentleness in my eyes
And scars all over my flesh
Marks from all my sacrifices
I have begun to mesh

Indentions on my soul
Where words have lashed
But I'm still moving
Shoddy, rusted, needing oil and gas and faith

But I am still living
Breathing
Becoming
Myself


(763.) Those Smiles Keep Distracting Me 08/05/07 4:52 AM
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I'm such a sucker
For a prety girl with a smile
I stopped holding her hand
And wrote this poem

(764.) Ugly 08/05/07 7:24 PM - 7:25 PM
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I'm an ugly man
With ugly hands
That make ugly art
That I show to other ugly people
Who welcome frank in for a visit
Then we talk of beauty
As we sip our ugly liquids
Or drag our ugly habits
We live in ugly houses
Bought with ugly money
Made in an ugly society
But we're aiming for beauty
And there's something beautiful about that

Your ideas are awesome.
I'll read more of your poems as soon as I have the chance.
Keep up the good work

[spoiler]Favorites? 753, 756, 762, 763.[/spoiler]

Thanks man, I hope you find more you like. Any suggestions or requests are gladly welcomed.

(765.) 13/05/07 4:33 PM - 4:35 PM
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I saw a man and his wife
Sitting on the street
Their two children
At the end of leashes
Obidiently sitting
Waiting for mama
and papa
To make enough to feed them
The couple's bags
were large with clothes
and trinkets
from adventures across the world
They were selling junk
made into art
and jewewlry
I gave them $2.11
My step-father said
"You're only encouraging them."
"Good."
Was the only way I knew
to respond


(766.) If I Say It Is, Let's Hope It Is 14/05/07 12:33 AM - 12:42 AM
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I wanted to write a love poem
This is a love poem
Because I said so
Her eyes were small
The large glasses framed them
And made them seem even smaller
He winked as he pushed them off
She doesn't know what she wants from life
f*ck me
That's right
Telling me that will surely make it better
My brain is showing!
New skin
new day
And I think I want a tatoo on the back of my neck
I'll shave my head on the 25th
There is no poetic allusion here
Or is there?
I don't know
This is a love poem
Atleast I think so
The other girl
She was a b*tch
No two ways around it
But she hid it well
Quick to judge
But fun loving
They were both fun loving
RAGE
RAGE AWAY
Just for a kiss
The end of the world
Over a f*cking kiss
God he's a monster
There should be a comma there
Right?
God COULD be a monster
I mean....
Anything is possible
There she was
sitting on his lap
telling him what she wanted
I wonder if she ever got it?
he was getting on a plane
and leaving
running away
from all his sins
they still will fester in his mind
new beginings
lies
liars
This is a love poem
I hope
Because I feel something
And I don't know what else to call it

(767.) 770-286-2204 05/14/07 12:55 AM - 12:58 AM
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Please
Ring
Vibrate
Sing to me
Bring me good news
Great news
Give me hope
Wake me up
To make me smile
Ignore that I'm angry
Ignore that I'm sad
I'll fill you up every night
And you'll shine bright
Every night
Every day
Your display hints an your innards
but I'll never know if you don't open up
Pull out your antenna
Pick up my waves
Realize I'm calling
Answer
Because I want to hear your sweet voice
Over a phone
And nothing else quite makes the silence
Seem so silent
As the absence of your voice

(768.)
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There it was
That twang on my heart string
her smile was sweet
He didn't care
I could have a girl
Not any girl
But I could have a girl
Doesn't she realize that?
She can have a boy
Oh she can have a boy
I'm sorry I keep turning you gals down
You can have me I guess
But I don't want to be bogged down
I don't want to break any hearts
On second thought
I can't have a girl
I'm not responsible enough

(769.)Can't Hear You 05/15/07 10:52 PM - 10:54 PM
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God,
Can you hear me?
If so speak up,
I can't hear you.
I never could hear you.
I wondered if I was deaf
When all the other kids said they heard you
I still can't hear you.
I can't feel you
I don't know you
But I want to
Just no one seems to answer
When I call out at night
No human
No God
Nothing inbetween
It's lonely
And I can't hear you.

(770.) 05/15/07 10:55 PM - 10:58 PM
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Jewels laid washed on the shore
As his face kept changing
No.
His face stayed the same
No flesh
Different hats
Different hair
Same look in his eyes
My brain
Is br
ok
en
ne
ko
rb
Hands had flesh
Gray wings molted everywhere
he held it
held it tight
Nothing more beautiful
Nothing at all
Man asked a question
God didn't know the answer
Man made God
God made man
The cycle was nice
But where did it start?
It starts now
With this thought
Life is born
Life ends
Life becomes
Life

i thought that all of these last few had their own... wonderful points. not sure what else to call them. but 766 was a cut above, to be honest.

it kinda hurt a bit to read, probably to do with the... confusion? or what i read confusion into, in the questioning..

'this is a love poem.
at least, i think so.'

...i really know what you mean, at least in places. like... REALLY. or i think i do?

"Telling me that will surely make it better"

... hope you're ok and all ^^; cause i have a distorted, fairground mirror image of an idea what you mean. i think. ><;;; eesh. listen to me, i should stop talking and go rediscover the plot that i surely lost somewhere back there ^_^

keep writing, at any rate. and i'll keep on misinterpreting.

Thank you my friend, I love to hear feedback. If you'd like for me to describe any of my poems to you, just ask and I'll gladly go over what I was trying to say.

(771.) 05/20/07 3:00 AM
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I want to hold you in my arms
and wish away the
days and nights
Forget about the
delays and fights
I just wanna love you

(772.) God Damn I Hope She Remembers 12:58 AM - 1:00 AM
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There's a fog rollin in
But I got a fan
There's a tide washin up
But I got a plan
I'll hold you tight
Won't shut-up
We've got all night
To talk
Open up
Won't you please talk with me?
Let me in
I want to see
Just how you tick
Oh God....
I'm writing sh*tty rhyming love poems again.
I can't give up my artistic integrity.
Well maybe I can,
But only for you
.....damnit

(773.) It Seers It's Marks In My Eyes 05/21/07 ? - 9:13 PM
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This is anger
So rarely do I understand my emotions so clearly
But this...this is anger in it's purest form
It is irrational
So I do not express it
But it is still inside me
There is no denying that
I worry
For I fear nothing
And that scares me
So I must worry about other's fears
This is for every coward
Who idly stands by
And allows for the destruction of what he loves
I am angry
Calm
But filled with rage
I will craft it into a weapon
of purest intent
And strike fear in the heart
Only my heart though
No need to share this burden
I reached out
To preserve what I consider beauty
And it recoiled to my touch
Because a coward dangled it from a string
Anger
That is what I feel
It burns me
It rips me inside out
And keeps me warm
I will use my anger for better things
Before I end up hating you.

(774.) ? ? ?
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I saw a strike against beauty
A tear in her eye
And some bastard somewhere
May very well be going unpunished
For the gravest crime I know

(775.) ? ? ?
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He is a good man
Does his work when asked
Friends to anyone who wants one
Charming
Always smiling
Girls pay him no mind
No mind more than a shoulder to cry on
He deserves a good girl
But all he has is a cup of tears
A few tread marks
and a smile