@ShadowFox1001
First, I would like to apologize to you and anyone else if you were offended by the comments that I made. I made them while I was buzzed and while accept full responsibility for them because I have no reason not to, they truly do not necessarily reflect my actual sober belief system. I value the idea of not attacking in a way that is aggressive and I failed in that post and for that I am sorry.

I would like to clarify that as I addressed above, when I say "I'm buzzed", it is in no way intended to be an excuse but rather a full disclosure so as to not take the opinion as seriously.

Addressing your remarks about my nitpicking, I will only say that I believe that I have done this considerably less than the past and when I am not aggressively buzzed (for which I always apologize) I feel that the level and length of my responses are appropriate. You do not know how many times I abstain from responding in posts and in manners which I would have responded a year ago.

I would also like to clarify that while nothing seems to prevent you from disregarding the content of my posts in their entirety, I don't need a "right" to post them. All I need is the ability to express myself and that is it.

@The Xix
The designation I would use is that we are all apparently 'fallible'.

@Draygone
As I said above my post while 'buzzed' was not necessarily what I believe while sober and may therefore have only been express through frustration while otherwise being relatively meaningless. I agree that you may know what you want today even if not tomorrow.

However @ all,

I think what I meant underlying my mode of thought was that when I was in my 20's I wanted to go to Europe, I wanted to live in the city, I wanted to have a girlfriend, I wanted to watch live theatre, I wanted to go to nice restaurants, and I wanted to stay out all night. And that is fine, it is probably very similar to what you all want to do.

But I have done all of them by now, and none of them have given me what I have just realized I HAVE ALWAYS really wanted and that is that I want to be free to relate to any women I encounter, mentally, physically, and spiritually. The rest it turns out was just details. They in and of themselves were not fulfilling. I can also imagine that if those circumstances were done exlusively with men, they would be unfulfilling to me.

So you see my point is that I did know what I wanted, and it turned out that it didn't make me happy because I never simply admitted what I really wanted underlying it all. My eyes were on the prize, but the prize itself was a variation on the underlying theme, a means to an end and little more. I guess you can say I deconstructed out the drama and reached the core of what I was looking for. Take it for what you will.

Stop making that friggin' excuse, nobody believes it anymore!

At your "However @ All" part, okay, I can agree with you to that extent. Even though I want this stuff now, it is the fluff in life and I don't know what I really want out of life, that true contentment. (Just like I don't know what I want out of a relationship.)

@Draygone

Nobody believes what? Do you not believe that I actually was buzzed or do you not believe that I can have two different perspectives, one sober and one buzzed?

chill guys, no point getting into a fluff about nothing.

Well, this was a topic about would we feel content or whatever with the things we have and have done, should we die now. It had to turn into some kind of debate or aiming towards it by someone having to post their opinion about the whole thing. In a separate topic, this would be fine, but not here. I was heated by what was said, so I said my words instead of taking grasp of it all as a moderator should, which was my mistake. However, I don't need someone telling me or anyone else that most of what we do is meaningless or not really necessary and so on and so forth.

^ actually... the original question was "If by the end, you've lived your life the way you wanted, would you be happy?" which the first reply (being your own) addressed but the post after referenced something slightly tangential and the whole topic digressed from there.

With us back at square one, leaving me to ask something else:

Are you happy with the way you're living your life now?

I am. I work, game, and sleep. I can't think of anything else I'd rather be doing.

I'm very happy and content. There's nothing more I need. I ask for very little out of life.

I am happy for the most part. I just have one real world obstacle and one mental demon to detract. Otherwise, by default, I am in a monastic need not/want not zen state.

So hey, this is back to a real thread again. Good.

Me, I'm not too happy. I gotta work on being more and more less lazy, so I can maximize the benefits of the things I do. Basically by doing more things.

Also I don't think I want to be 100% satisfied with the way I live my life. This way I'll always have something to strive for.
Personally, without something to strive for, I think I'd wither away and become a gaping hole of terrible void darkness.

Right now?
Nope.
I mean, I'm working toward my goals, and I'm happy about that.
Maybe things won't turn out as I expected, but at least I know I'm trying.

Not really. I have this issue where I either put too much on my plate or once, or I skip the meal entirely (ie, laziness). I was doing good for a few weeks there, getting going on Slayers' Reign. Then I also got back into drawing at the same time and decided to start that comic I had ideas for a while. And, I forget what else I decided to try doing. (Oh yeah, the Mario 2 hack attempt.)

Now I'm back to laziness.

For the most part, the positives outweigh the negatives. I don't have much to complain about. Social life is not great, but I am trying to be more selective of the friends I choose now. But overall, I am pretty happy with how I'm living.

Happy right now? Sort of. I'm in debt up to my ears, and yet I can still afford to pay off those debts, I just can't excessily spend, which bothers me, since I like to buy things. Even though I'm under a bit of pressure, I try and have fun. So life is going alright.