Ah, I skipped almost a week. Time to make it up. Three songs added today, and three tomorrow:
Tell Me What I'm Doing (song I wrote for a singer)
Quote:
Verse One
I’m breaking free from your verbal chains
Because you’ve put me through so much pain
One moment, you’re calm,
But the next, you get mad and destroy things
It’s utter madness; he can’t be trusted
I need to leave now, this man’s corrupted
Packing while he’s sleeping,
I don’t tell him where I’m moving
Time’s not on my side
Soon, he will open his eyes
To see that I’m not there in my cell
And he’ll search ‘til he drags me back to hell
If I stayed there, I’d be losing
I refuse to let him catch me
And control the things I’m doing
Verse Two
It never used to be like this
At the start of the relationship
He didn’t say that I was obsolete
Worked a good paying job right across the street
But he was let go, then his confidence waned
That agonizing thought wouldn’t exit his brain
I assured him that he’d be working again
But every job did nothing to help this man
So, he’d take his frustrations out on me
Since they won’t approve him, I tried to soothe him
But his temper grew inhuman
I endured it for far too long
Trying to run away from all those wrongs
I won’t let him catch me
And control the things I’m doing
Lord Have Mercy (from early 2007)
Quote:
Verse
From a very young age, I was following Christ
Tried to shed bad behavior and do things right
But there was always temptation-
The cursing that I heard around me
Which led to further contemplation
I tried to resist it as long as I could
From these demons who had wanted me away from the good
Snuff and drinks, even using Christ in vain
And it got so stressful; it was eating my brain
My temper and depression, they went through the cracks
Only by letting go could Bonanza relax
I still have morals, but I’m much more lenient
And to say that I don’t would just be inconvenient
The goal now is to live each day as my last
And not dwell on bad things that I did in the past
I got support from family and Chris Vetrano
Stay up, man, mi tercero hermano
Take Deep Breaths (from 2006)
Quote:
Verse One
Constant workloads give me stress
Yet I try to do my best
Taking all these stupid courses
To worthy mother’s monthly checks
I thought that things were going swell
But I lied, I’m inducing hell
I keep having these bad visions
Of what I’ve wanted most: revenge
I’ve been depressed, insecure
And since then, I’ve been writing more
I truly think my enemies
Are keeping a closer eye on me
And it sucks, but I’m too afraid
Cause I do most things in passive ways
I know this method’s not the best
To achieve my true success
(Can a negro just…)
Chorus
Take deep breaths (why?) I don’t want you dead, boy
Take deep breaths (why?) I don’t want you dead, boy
Take deep breaths (why?) I don’t want you dead, boy
Take deep breaths, no quiero tu muertas hoy.
Verse Two
For stress, I guess I’ll list a sample
I’m hoping that this sh*t is ample
I met some chick my freshmen year
So opened minded and so sincere
I wanted her to hear my tracks
Although the quality was whack
A few were pretty personal
And I believed that I could trust this girl
She promised me, or so I thought
But a few months back, sh*t, I got caught
She told the group that I dissed in song
And smiled as I was grilled upon
Once a good friend, turned to snitch
Was once was a girl is now a b*tch
Deception, she had used the skill
To make me feel this ill
(Can a negro just…)
Chorus
Take deep breaths (why?) I don’t want you dead, boy
Take deep breaths (why?) I don’t want you dead, boy
Take deep breaths (why?) I don’t want you dead, boy
Take deep breaths, no quiero tu muertas hoy.
Verse Three
LC, año numero tres
People said it’d be the less
Than the first two; they lied again
I’m doing even more work, my friend
Westover with the frying power
The minimum wage is just too sour
But it keeps me occupied
And something is better than nothing, guy
Keeping up with my 17 credits
Maintaining good grades and merit
There are some days where I can’t bear it
And that’s when I just take deep breaths
Or just call home to hear my mom’s voice
And I never regret this choice
I can’t let pride get in the way
When my days are feeling gray
(So I gotta just…)
Chorus
Take deep breaths (why?) I don’t want you dead, boy
Take deep breaths (why?) I don’t want you dead, boy
Take deep breaths (why?) I don’t want you dead, boy
Take deep breaths, no quiero tu muertas hoy.
© 2006 The True Bonanza