(792.) The City 08/07/07 2:35 AM - 2:36 AM
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Every little bar
makes another step
on the roller coaster city
and my music hangs overhead
so they can all hear me
when I hum
my furry little companion
purrs peacefully
to sleep
And I don't think I'll ever
want to get off this ride
(793.) When The Day Comes, Come See Me 08/10/07 3:25 AM - 3:31 AM
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I'm standing here
Inviting you to please come back
I won't cheapen your life with petty excuses
"what about your friends?"
"Your family?"
"What about your children?"
"What about all those you'd leave behind?"
You know exactly what they'd do
Doing it for revenge is silly
Effective I suppose
But silly
In the name of science?
You know as well as I do the odds of you coming back are low.
So your data would just satiate yourself
And wouldn't advance science an inch
You're worth something you know
To me
To the "greater good"
To probably more people than you realize
I have a feeling at this point you don't care
There's a lot of things you should at least try
Before you make the plunge
have you loved?
Have you traveled?
Wasted a day?
Have you learned?
Have you felt pain?
Have you lived?
You have to at least live before you die.
Existing is one thing my friend.
We all do that.
Why not at least try to live?
I'll help you
I promise
I have patience
Take your time
Not your life
Please
Just talk to me first.
(794.) Let's Talk About Se..Life! 08/12/07 1:53 AM
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Talk to me of life.
Your life
Someone else's life
Someone's you don't know life
A life you want
A good life
A bad life
The life
No life
Breathe life into a sentence of life
Live life vicariously through a f*cking sentence
Please.
(795.) Kill It, Why Not? 08/17/07 4:45 AM - 4:48 AM
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Long blade like shoulders
Callous smile
Grandiose dreams
And she will kill this universe
We will be but red slushes on the ground
Puddled around her ankles
sliding down her leg
We will not move again
The rythm was prescribed
From 30 men
With 30 different views
Of 30 different things
But they meshed horribley
And disorder reigned
Over us.
She will not spare us
with her reptile skin
he will not improve
with his spineless ways
no,
the world is too much for some
and all they'll do is kill it
(796.) Know What To Follow 08/21/07 7:14 PM
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Don't follow your gut.
Follow your heart
but your heart diverts 99% of all queries to the mind
And the 1% it does answer,
You should have asked your soul to begin with.
(797.) Liver Cancer 08/25/07 4:56 PM - 4:58 PM
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I wanted to be there.
And see her smile
Put her head down
Sleep
I wanted to touch her
Let her know it's okay
Hug her
Tell her I loved her
Have her tail wag one last time
I would have cried
I should have cried
I miss her already
(798.) Useless Babble 08/22/07 11 AM
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And so consequentely as a result
implies that the point is demonstrates that
it is clear that therefore then for these reasons
means that it is likely that as a consequence
it indicates that accordingly it follows that
in fact serves to show that we infer that
hence is evidence that suggests in short
it must be that in conclusion
we don't really know anything at all
(799.) Rewrite It Again 08/29/07
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Would you speak to me
in tounges I don't know
of things I have never felt
and perhaps never will
And we will watch tim stumble over itself
into quantum connundrums
that men will kill themselves over
then we can laugh in our our world of uncertainties
I don't know your name
I don't know your goals
I barely know your face
I only know this moment
It seems that's enough
So take my hand
We will rewrite the laws of this world
Finding patterns inbetween the fabrics of our sheets
Making theories
Testing God himself
Teach me about yourself
And I will rewrite my world in your essence
(800.) Nice Girl 10/10/07 12:04 PM - 12:13 PM
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I thirst
a year in this wasteland
where I am parched to the soul
has dried me
water will do nothing
love may heal me
but it need be pure
I long for a straw
to dip into the sea of love
and suck
untill the stream is clean
then only true love
will make it through the filter
Here I am though
at the faucet of youth
watching others drink haphazardly
spilling it everywhere
and my knowledge of how precious each drop is
prevents me from quenching this thirst
One cup filled
holds so much poison
that I dare not risk it
and sifting through by hand
take so long
I am tired
I am thirsty
I am lonely
and the water here is tainted.
Can't I just have a nice girl to quench my thirst?
(801.) Pessimistic Drunk
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God damn you Charles.
Just because you made
mistakes
Doesn't mean everyone else is going to
You're a pessimistic
drunk
with more mistakes than
New York
How many bastard children did you have?
Then wayward teens angry with everything
come along and read your drunken
slurs
and have a new lesson for sunday
school
Claiming your fame as proof enough of your backward views
I read you because you make me laugh
I respect you for your drunken way with words
Not your views
You damn
horny
drunken
pessimistic
bastard
(802.) Peddling
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Anything you want,
you can be denied
anything you need
may not be supplied
(803.) Gramophone
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So as she injected the needle
into another dirty groove
the record played a sad song of addiction
(804.) 20% Off On Black Friday
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When you sell your soul,
i suggest you ask for a receipt
when you buy another's soul
make sure to pay extra to have it wrapped in deceit.
(805.) Old Age Will Destroy A Weak Spirit 10/15/07
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To Him:
He's smarter than me.
I'm too young to have an opinion.
I'm too naive.
I'm irresponsible
I don't have a real job and the REAL business world is going to eat me alive
I hope that there is a happy ending when it's all over.
I go to bed every night alone
And I only hear I love yous when I ask for them.
I don't feel I love yous anymore
I'm not depressed
This little light of mine
This little light of mine
It is dark in this home
it is cold
and it is blisteringly hot
all the comforts of a house
all the inconsistencies of the wild
or perhaps the other way around
he worries about me
I worry about him
he worries about money
I worry about love
I may end up poor
unsuccessful
but I will not
f*cking
end up
alone.
More than I can say for him.
I worry about him
I want to leave
but I'm shackled down by his doubt
I don't know if I love him
and I feel heartless for thinking that
sadness
stay
away
p
l
ease......
(806.) Stub 10/30/07 4:42 AM
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We went to see a movie but you never made it there
I gave him my stub and he left for good
You were sick somewhere
and I left you
but it was all a dream
and I awoke and you had the same
and I apologize
so we tried again
you made it just fine
falling asleep next to each other
holding nothing
but time went on
and you slowly held my hand
then me
but I awoke
and you didn't have the same
and I apologize
(807.) Act Now While Supplies Last 11/08/07 5:11 AM
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I am bleeding out the oceans
And coughing up the islands
Won't you take a cruise?
And come see my sickness
I am an abomination
Who looks like an angel
But my wings tell more than I let on
She is ecstacy
And they're angry
Stones
Breaking
Bruises
and a spear to the throat
why do you keep me alive?
and why....
oh why...
can't I find you again?
Angel from my dreams...
Come and take what you want
Just take me with you....
(808.) I hear tomorrows is nice 12/14/07 4:53 AM
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Let's run away.
You pick the place.
And I'll take you there.
(809.) Listen, I Promise It's There 12/21/07 2:56 AM
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Don't you know?
Well I'm not going to tell you
I've told you....
in every passing breath
and if you don't know by now
I fear I never will....
(810.) Objects?
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There is something wrong with the world
When a girl
comes to me
and says
she's not pretty
when she's the most beautiful thing
that I may have ever seen
objects in mirror are prettier than they appear
For me you will never be two sizes too small
too big
two inches under height
or two cup sizes away
You are perfect,
and if not in my eyes
for some man out there
You do not need to throw up to fit that dress
Just buy it a size bigger
or smaller
There is a place in this world for each and every one of us
and you don't need to lose weight to fit inside it
you only need to grow as a person
so take your hand out of your mouth
and your mind off such harmful things
there is and will always be a place for
you,
and I do mean you you,
and there's also always a little more room
for cheesecake
(811.) I Suppose It Makes For A Good Hobby
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So, you don't like poetry?
That doesn't mean much to me.
For you see
a wise man once said
We don't read and write poetry because it's cute.
We read and write poetry because we are members of the human race.
And the human race is filled with passion.
And medicine, law, business, engineering, these are noble pursuits and necessary to sustain life.
But poetry, beauty, romance, love, these are what we stay alive for.
It's true,
whether you want to admit it or not
Poetry is how you word love
Poetry is how you express life
Sure, the arts in general do that.
But you'll be hard pressed not to find poetry and love intertwined
A love movie?
That is poetry in motion
A love song?
Poetry is it's very soul
A beautiful painting?
Have the poet describe that for you, without using a poem.
You don't realize it, but you wanna write poetry
it's okay,
it's natural.
A novelist wishes he could write a poem
he just doesn't know how to rhyme
or cut lines short
so he capitalizes every sentence with a sigh
and tries again
and again
and turns it into an epic
at least that's it's true name
but I'll humor him
he wrote "a novel"
How novel of him.
But me?
I WRITE POETRY
and I am proud
because I turn love into words
and words into meaning
and without meaning
we are often nothing
and without poetry
I fear I may be nothing
So humor me,
don't snap your fingers
or clap in appreciation
close your eyes
and listen to these words
no scratch that,
FEEL these words
as I write
every
single
word
on your soul
and make my mark
to show you
what love is.
(812.) Her Touch 02/01/08 5:27 AM - 5:30 AM
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Hands gliding
Flying
sailing
,never groping,
along perfection
for every crack they found
love filled in the valleys
and made a sheet
of beauty
that coated everything
and we lay in it
letting it layer over us
as we kept warm
eventually the snow stopped
and she stopped
and her fingers fell in the cracks
love never fell
the space between us
never
went
away
(813.) I Wish I Could Show You 02/01/08 5:31 AM - 5:34 AM
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words
flowing
down
to the very
bottom
collecting
into
a
puddle of feelings that I can't wash away
(814.) It Can All Start With Hello 02/01/08 5:35 AM - 5:37 AM
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Give me your
hand
so I can guide your
soul
down the path to love
where we will bathe in life
Let me smell your
hair
so I can breathe in every vapor
of your
scent
I will lose myself
into your
eyes
and I will sleep inside your
heart
(815.) I Can't Go Cold Turkey 02/01/08 5:39 AM
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i need to know that it can happen
i need to smell you
hold you close
feel your heartbeat resonate in my own
i need
you
(816.) My Throat Hurts 02/01/08 5:40 AM - 5:45 AM
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here are my verses
life your musical is horrible
i will sing
but only out of obligation
and not out of permanance
erase my name if you will
and take my lessons
they must be good for something
for someone
destined for more than me
you my student
i will never meet you
but you will meet me
you may judge me by my work
most all of it is me
broken, loved, fragile, brittle, cold. soothing, or finely crafted
its me
and no longer mine
take care of me
when i'm gone
(817.) Random Musing 1
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Take a chance
Take a chair
But whatever you do
don't just stare
(817.) Random Musing 2 (We Wear The Mask)
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What happiness have we bought?
From devils who decieve we.
It hides our treasure bought hidden smiles
While from souls we sing to Christ
With tounges so full of lament
For the hell we recieve instead
(817.) Random Musing 3 (Still I Rise)
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Life shoots me and pushes my body in the trenches
Me still living bleeding out the last bit of hope my people had
I am beset by the down trodden suns
Whose shoulders bowed into the dirt with terror of history
The tides of the weakend words will kill
And oceans of pain and gifts will I rise through
Till I reach heaven
Where God has planned for me a good life
Because all he's given me here was hell.
(818.) Random Musing 4
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We took our souls
and peeled away our hopes
and we made you my child
from the shavings
(819.) Random Musing 5
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No.
No.
No.
No.
No
No
No no no no no
But still somehow...
yes?
(820.) Random Musing 6
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f*ck you,
you piece of white space
I will mar you with words
I will rape you with metaphor
I will inevitably lose to your immensity
But I will not give up writing
How do I beat that which is so vast?
Rhetorical
I already know
For every word I strike against you
I imply a thousand more
So,
f*ck you
emptiness
(821.) Random Musing 7
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The world calls me but never hears when I respond.
Hello.....
Hello...
Hello
I love you.
But no one's ever there.
(822.) Random Musing 8
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Sugar and spice
and everything nice
that's how you make a good girl
Curves and piercings
and a lot of brains
That's how you make my kind of girl
(823.) Random Musing 9
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I once opened a window into a new world.
But I never went through
I just enjoyed the breeze
The breeze smelled of clinic happy
and lightly of fabric softener
(In case you were wondering)
(824.) Recurring Themes It Seems 03/14/08 3:51 AM
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Troubled men write troubled songs,
I shouldn't have to mind at all
That they're crying
yet I do
Happy girls throw up some more
I shouldn't have to mind at all
that they're ashamed
yet I do
Simple men make simple plans
I shouldn't have to mind at all
that they're failing
but I do
I care about you.
I want to help you.
I want to be there
when no one else can
yet I can't.
though I try to
God hates cigs they told to me
One day you see
and though I don't quite love my fellow man
to the extent with which they reprimand
I cared
Come to me you down trodden
And nail me to the cross
if makes you sleep at night
if you think it will make you feel alright
just do it
Nike doesn't know at all
and god damnit I'll take the fall
for you
whoever you may be
Mar me with your beliefs
and I will heal you with these hands
but should they wither
or stop to move
my words will have to do
because they are all I have to give you
Take my love
take it far
to the cities everywhere
that children cry
that the innocent die
hell
take it anywhere
that could use a bit
of encouragement
I'm not self-less
I'll want a reward
Give me an update
On how things come to be
And perhaps someday
Someone will bring love back to me
but just your words
that is enough
because really,
that's all I ask of you
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