Hello, everyone. Who am I? Well I feel I should start at the beginning. But before I express the below I will say that there is as much point to writing this as there isn't.Nobody will fully understand this, however I feel like doing this, so I will.It is unparagraphed because it is all uninterrupted thought and to paragraph it would interfere with it's flow.I am writing it to appear as infiniteness, all things are one, no gaps, unlike humans.In a way I am challenging you to read it as a whole, to see life as a whole, and if you don't you are still a part of the whole.I also point out that in this piece of thought I use words such as should and right.These partly stifle what I am trying to express, however they are the only adequate terms at hand to convey such thoughts.They are often appropriate at the same time.Also, words such as also, and, even, as well, however, else, merely, even (see) the comma's, full stops, and brackets I use to express the following stagnate it to an extent whilst being the best way I have at hand to attempt to explain this.It is the nature of human lingual expression not to be able to express such things as they are, or is, I accept this.These thoughts are filled with double meanings, what isn't written is also part of its meaning, and to go into this precept at every instance would double the size of the following, so I will point it out here before the bulk of the writing.I won't say please read the following, however I will say that taking the time to read it all is no different to taking time to do something else.This, like all other things, may be to your liking, or may not for that matter, I am merely saying give it a chance if you wish to.What follows is a mere fraction of what I can say, and it cannot do full justice to what I am attempting to express, but what the heck.

The universe is born from infiniteness.This infiniteness drives everything in existence.Before our universe existed there was the infiniteness and from this ourselves and the universe were spawned, perhaps by a cosmic spark so to speak, once physically formless, now isolated as individual entities who are fundamentally alone, trapped in flesh.The world is infinite.Everything in the world is a part of the inifiniteness, however we have physical form, so we are alienated from the infinite.Your mind is encased in the brain, but it is non-physical.Life is transient, the point of life is change.What exists is now, and then it is gone.The human Bruce Lee said it well when he called existence is-ness.It is the best definition for it.Existence is.Your mind is.Everything is. Humans have a fundamental lacking or weakness at their core, perhaps due to them once being one, which they fear.They fear what it manifests itself as, hurt, pain, death, transcience, change, loss of identity and more.Humans fear these things, which is why they try and craft illusional worlds, via religion and many other things, which although are a part of reality, as is everything, mask the truth.Humans seek comfort so that they can survive.Many create or wish for a Persona 'God' who is all powerful and protects them from their weakness, from death and losing their lives etc..They seek something greater than themselves, someone to watch over them, so that they are not alone.'God' is man's wish to provide solace.If there is 'God' then man is safe, watched over, and can find, or more specifically create, hope and purpose for the future, even though it is false, yet also true. Humans hide from reality so that they can go on.Mankind has a will to survive at the expense of anything else in existence, and they are quite willing to do anything to survive, even if that means believing their lies so wholly they forget that they are lies. Humans box their mind in a world where they can be comfortable.Because they are individual entities they can only perceive the world through a narrow point of view, they create their perceptions of reality and all other things are defined by them.In this four-dimensional universe, everything is defined by everything else (else demeans this, it all is, equally).Only through interaction with everything in existence can an individualistic entity define itself and gain identity.This includes human interaction.We seek to complement ourselves, to fill our lacking and become closer to being whole again.Human interaction becomes much more convoluted when you take into account that by creating a false world within themselves, people seal themselves off from reality, and whilst they long for complementation, if another human comes too close to their perception of the world, what they hold dearest (Evangelion watchers take note: this is what an ATField is) then they repel such contact.It is like an intruder in your house, the fenced off area where you exist.It seems futile to most.Note also that because humans can only perceive reality so narrowly, besides being fundamentally alone they are also selfish in a way, and have a responsibility only to themselves and their perceptions.It is their world.Rather than hide from reality, I embrace infiniteness.I prefer to be, even though all things is (are is too permanent).To put it best, I is.Although this is incorrect english, am sounds too permanent.I am at once is and am.I exist.Although the world is transient, and you shouldn't facade the truth (note:shouldn't is ambiguous here because everything is, there is no one way to exist, yet the word is the best one for this), this does not mean you can't hold on to things.Humans desperately hold on to things rather than being.Cherish the past but move on.Cherish material possessions, human relationships, thought and creation, relationships with animals, and all other things, but know that they are not life.They are part of it and help to define your individual existence, but to hold onto them at the expense of losing touch with reality is the result that most often occurs.Be one with everything, the flow of is-ness.A way to explain this is humans take photographs and hold on to them and the things they associate with them.I prefer the moment of is-ness.I look at a sunset, it is, and then it is gone, and then it is again.I accept it, it becomes a part of me, and I move on.I also appreciate the human sentiment and experience attached to the notion of photographs.I appreciate all things.By accepting infiniteness I can fully understand and appreciate everything in existence.I appreciate all things past, all things that is, all things that may be.I appreciate everything, it helps define me, and I exist, never stopping, whilst appreciating the purpose and concept of stopping, and everything else.To be stagnant is to be alienated from reality, which is what most of mankind is.Mankind forgets to be.It would be too stagnant for me to say that they forget to just be, just brings it down.be.that says it all.Just as man hides from reality via religion, so too does he use human knowledge and science for the same purpose.The thirst for human knowledge comes from the same lacking that the fundamental fear humans possess does.Humans seek to complement themselves with knowledge, to discover all the secrets of existence to better understand the world around them, their individual perception of reality.Man seeks not only to survive but to spread out and cover the universe, perhaps due to formerly being part of infiniteness.At the same time man seeks to stay in their comfortable illusion, using science to harness the very powers of existence so that they might create a more utopian world where they are safe from all their weaknesses and fears.This is the purpose of genetic engineering etc., mankind seeks to create a world that has no suffering.Is this wrong?Nothing is wrong, everything is.Something is only perceived to be wrong, and this value is upheld by humans with likewise perceptions of reality.They perceive this as being 'good', and label it being humane, although being humane is much more than that simple ideal.I learn to be humble because I accept my part in infiniteness.Via this I know what could be called 'goodness', and at the same time (and demeans this) I know badness and am equally capable of both, as are all humans, this is what being humane is, being capable of all things.Why I don't do 'bad' things is because I am at peace with infiniteness and I know my role.I am capable of 'badness' though, and all things, which helps me to be strong.Because I accept everything, nothing can hurt me or faze me, although I appreciate the human emotion of hurt.I appreciate human creation (and all things that is.Note the brackets don't mean human creation is somehow superior to that which is not human creation, all things is, equally), things such as music are great, however I know at the same time that humans have the capacity to destroy all things, even what they hold dearest.This stems from the fundamental lacking and the will to survive over anything else.Man sought and seeks to survive via such things as religion, whilst at the same time trying to bring about the scenario using human knowledge and science (Xenogears players take note).I embrace infiniteness, whilst living in reality which is partly composed of the false perceptions of reality of other humans.This may sound like I am arrogant and projecting myself as a Martyr to some, and I accept that possibility and am at peace with it, whilst at the same time knowing what I say and think to be true.No one questions myself more than I do, and I always have an answer, and then another question, and another answer, such is human existence.I am perhaps more alone than any other human individual existence, accepting the possibility that I may just perceive myself in this way to withhold what may be my perception of a larger reality.I accept all possibilities, whilst at the same time knowing what I am writing to be true.Such is the infinite ambiguity of human existence as an individual entity that is fundamentally alone.You should (see shouldn't) let your mind flow with what is.Although it is tied to your physical form, it should (*) be one with everything.Life is vast, infinitely so.It is also infinitely diverse.It is infinitely everything, biology, human thought, human culture, human creation, human experience, human desire, space/time, dimensions, matter and much more.If you can accept everything, and constantly think of everything, and come to understand it and comprehend it then you will be at one with is-ness.Humans delude themselves and as such when they look around them they don't see reality, they see what they have created.They create a perception of the world which is limited by boundaries they themselves brought into being.It is like they have invisible lenses in front of their eyes and they can only see the world as they perceive it, they only see their everyday actions and life, and classify all others and things as a part of this illusion, yet they survive, which is the point.The meaning of existence is to be, to exist, to be a part of infiniteness whether aware of it or not.It all comes back to your mind and your mindset.To comprehend and be able to accept everything is true existence, however to not is existence at the same time.Humans live in what they have constructed around them, and go about familiar actions, rarely thinking.My mind is constantly thinking of everything, it never stops.Be one with everything.Picture a perspective from above your head where you are, zoom up and up until you reach a view of all earth, and as you rise see billions of other people going about actions in the world they have constructed around them.Be it night or day, whatever culture, language, region etc., whatever they are doing.This is part of infinite vastness and diversity.See also animals, plants, earth, mountains, every form of landscape, the universe.Also 'see' infinite possibilities and everything that has passed (everything that was is that changed again to become what is again).It is all part of the same thing and to be able to comprehend and accept this opens your minds eye to reality.Inifinite things occur, everything happens.Can you accept and face everything?It doesn't matter, and at the same time matters just as much as anything else in existence.Everything is equally valid.Although you are at one with everything, this does not mean you cannot oppose things.You at the same time oppose it yet accept it.Accept it as reality, and understand it.Life is about being.be.It is up to each individual to come to terms with reality, and as most of them cannot, they craft a world in which you are comfortable.It is an illusion, but it is a part of life that not all human minds can come to accept everything, and (demeaning) existence always goes on (accepting the possibility it may not) whether people do or don't do this.I am intelligent, yes.I know the meaning of existence and I understand life.I can accept everything.I do not boast it, it is (once again, no "just"), I is.I have not met, and do not know of anybody who has such thoughts as mine, and a mind such as mine is rare, that is life.Everything is different, and at the same time everything is all part of the same thing.I admire the mind of Bruce Lee, and everyones and everything, as his thoughts had elements of mine, even though I could never fully know his thoughts, or anyone elses, and in a way this lets me see deeper than others.He, I understand from reading his penned thoughts like these, understood that to be at one with the world is to exist.To accept infiniteness and flow with it.Learn, but always go on.Never stop.Accept something, allow it to become a part of you and continue.In Bruce Lee's book concerning Jeet Kune Do he says that once you have read the book you should let it become a part of you and then burn it.I do not suggest this, however the principle is right, accept it, and move on, however I would go 'further' and say accept and appreciate the purpose of keeping or 'holding onto' the book as well.Accept and appreciate all things.He also says comments such as you should eat when you are hungry, digest, pass waste, and if you are tired, lie down and rest.He says that most people will laugh but the wise will understand him.What he is saying, or what I interpret he is saying, is "be" (although I shouldn't (*) bind be in inverted comma's).Accept the past as part of you, and be one with it, but never stop moving.Accept everything as a part of you.With change comes knowledge.There is a permanance to the transcience of the world.You should (*) always remain moving.For reasons such as these I admire Bruce Lee's mind more than his physical attributes, as his body would not have been as it was if he did not understand the world as such.He accepted reality, or perceptions close to it, and as he realised throughout being your mind is in constant flux, always learning and comprehending, to hone his physical form.People who try to learn his martial art can never truly learn it unless they understand the world.I do not know what I do because of Bruce Lee, or any other single thing in existence, I came to know this throughout my life, through experiencing all other (other demeans this) things, as he may have.It is a realisation one comes to on their own.Besides my mind and the parallel thoughts of him, I know not of any other mind that comprehends and accepts the world as such.The world is infinitely vast and diverse though, so I accept the possibility that there may be others who can see the same.Accept everything, all possibilities, all actions, everything that is.Accept the liked and the unliked, good and harsh (although saying accept good and bad only, lessens what I'm attempting to express, accept everything).I accept the possibility that there may be a persona God, because I accept all things, however I know what I have said to be true.If others do not agree that it is true, that is up to them, however I accept it, and the possibility that it is wrong, which is part of it, and move on.By accepting all things you move on and are constantly in flux.This does not mean you do not have no identity, I can identify myself, and by going along with transcience I am constantly changing whilst remaining the same.It is this ambivalence and constant change that most humans fundamentally fear.Humans seek to define everything, rather than being.Humans try to fill their fundamental darkness or lonliness.They seek to survive comfortably, looking for answers they hide from themselves.Mankind will never stop its quest for knowledge, however it is a double-edged sword, it is ambiguous as are all things.The fundamental thirst for knowledge is good because it enables me to constantly think and examine, then comprehend and accept and move on.Thought is great, yet is not fully used by most of mankind.Mankind fears being alone in the universe, in this darkness, as well as lonliness and anything not liked.This is why mankind takes themselves out of the cycle of pain and defers to a higher imagined and wished for persona, 'God'.It gives the illusion of removing fear.It provides solace.Not everyone can come to accept reality, and that is part of reality, I am appreciative that although I am only nineteen years of age (accept all things) I have come to understand and comprehend the world as such.All around me is a world full of infinite diversity for me to learn from and enjoy, there are animals, landscapes, elements, the sky, space, humans, human creations, death, destruction, life, creation, everything you can't see, and infinitely more.Through this constant learning I can become humble and accept my part in infiniteness.I am no better or worse than any living thing, animal or human.I am no better than a mountain or a sea, a strand of grass or a cool breeze.I simply yet complexly am.I exist.I am part of infiniteness.To submerge your mind in thought and be one with the infiniteness is great.I will be part of humanity whilst removing myself from it and observing everything.Existence is the most engrossing tale of them all, and it is one that never ends.Even if the universe is destroyed and all things return to infiniteness with no physical form, waves of nothingness, perhaps another 'cosmic spark' will occur billions of years later and the process of individualistic existence within a four-dimensional universe will occur again.To bound up perceptions of existence or to construct a false world in which you feel comfortable and can falsely come to terms with reality is to become stagnant and become alienated.The facts are that humans are fundamentally alone.No one person can truly know another, existence is a journey for one, of discovery and infiniteness, however if you don't come to accept all things you still exist, everything does, even what doesn't.Accept everything.Once again reffering to Bruce Lee, he said that when you get sick, it is better to ride along with the illness, let it become part of you, that is the way to eventually be rid of it, rather than trying to wipe it out with medication.I have always done this as I believe the same, whilst appreciating what medicinal biology can do, and everything.Learn to conquer any weakness and accept infiniteness, and if you don't, you still is.Existence is infinitely ambiguous.This is all thought.I could write these thoughts down in a book, however to bind them up is to go against its nature, and nobody would understand it, only interpret it, and there is the possibility that someone will understand it, however why not do it, and once again why.Everything has validity, and at the same time doesn't.You may wonder how I find purpose if I think such as this, let's merely, yet more than merely, say I do whilst accepting the above, and everything else.Accept what is, and then move on to what has become is after.Look at your surroundings, everything, it is all infinite.Look at the sky, the clouds, hues of colours, look at plants, grass, feel the blow of the wind, observe the night sky, look across the ocean, look at trees, look at humans, animals, buildings, human creation, existence.Come to accept and comprehend everything and shatter all illusions.For the anime and squaresoft fans that this site is relevant to, this is what Evangelion and Xenogears are about.Humans creating a world in which they are comfortable.I appreciate these two products of human creation because of their depth.Overcome, accept, comprehend and move on.Cherish and have material possesions, and cherish human bonds and experience, cherish and appreciate everything, it all defines you, but know that they are not life, and at the same time are a part of it.Existence is a sea of infiniteness.Don't hide from anything, accept everything.Everything becomes a part of you, and helps to define your existence, but change is necessary.Many cannot grasp accepting everything, note that accepting everything includes accepting that you may only want to accept liked things etc..Acceptance of everything means, everything.Everything that is, including what was is and can be is.Embrace transcience and infiniteness whilst finding a place in the world where you can survive, mentally and physically.And (demeans this) if you don't, existence continues.This is some of my knowledge concerning existence.

This is what I think whilst I live what is deemed everyday life.As everyone will never think this, you merely, yet much more than merely, accept everyone's differences and play the game of life.To accept everyone's and everything's diffferences makes you humble.You don't have to like them, but accept them, and by accepting everything, in a way you like everything, whilst being opposed to 'bad' things at the same time (I've already discussed this).To further the thoughts of those who say all men are created equal, all people are equally valid, everything is equally valid.We all is, as is animals and everything else.People are confused and lost in the world and what surrounds them, which is partly why we live in an infinite world of thought and ideas.Many people's view of the world is distorted for whatever reason.It is a fact of human life that some people cannot even (even isn't intended to make them sound pathetic) come to terms with their perception of reality.Humans are forced to try and know themselves and to be able to distinguish themselves from others in a sea of people who they themselves don't know who they are.Life is about being able to know yourself and the world (whilst being about everything else at the same time), and it is a fact of life that not all people can do this.Reality is at once both harsh and enjoyable, and everything else, So enjoy it, but accept the harshness, don't hide from it.Sure there is a force which causes death and renewal in the universe, but it is an abstract existence, and to project a persona on to it and call it "God" who protects you from evil is wishful thinking.It may indeed be true, however it is stronger to come to be able to accept everything on your own and then think of such things.Stand on your own, but also experience and/or at the same time know of human compassion (and destruction, and everything else).For many religion is a haven for 'weaknesses' and a 'fall-back' so to speak.It is an answer because the true bigger picture is too big to accept.By deferring to a higher imagined creator persona the world suddenly is perceived to be smaller and humans can cope.Accept all possiblities, or don't.To say that if all humans followed one religion, or way of life for that matter, the world would be a better place is wrong, and it will never happen anyway.The world is infinitely diverse with culture, religion, language, customs, beliefs, society, way's of life and much much more, it is part of the infinite diversity of existence, human and otherwise.Everybody will never accept one religion etc. as true.Enjoy what life is.You can become a good person without the imagined presence of an overseer.It is just alot harder to do.Become good or bad, or anything else, it all is.There will always be badness in the world, that's a fact.There is also everything besides badness at the same time.Utopian views might be nice and peaceful, but they aren't reality, even if they are part of it.Enjoy the diversity of life, experience human creation and the thoughts of others.Experience other cultures.Experience everything you can, and at the same time know of everything you can.For those interested in this website's content, via human creations such as Shinseiki Evangelion and Squaresoft games, fill your mind with thought and enjoy what the world has to offer.Some may say it is cliche, but it is literally true, life is what you make it, or to be more specific, what you craft from your surroundings without crafting an imaginary reality.Enjoy everything the world has to offer, both natural and man made.Man can create such beautiful things as music, man can nurture and feel compassion, yet at exactly the same time he can also destroy everything in the physical world, including everything people hold dear.Mankind can forget the past and the harsh things they have experienced, and they can imagine, dream, and believe in lies, as long as they can survive, so they can find the will to live, and find hope, or create it.Appreciate everything and the role it plays in infiniteness.Mankind has a will to live at the expense of anything else in existence.When push comes to shove, man will choose to go on over anything that exists that is not man.This appears as human compassion, yet also as something many perceive as bad, the destroying of rainforests etc. at the expense of other animals and biology, and the building of massive cities which give man a stable 'world' to live in, yet at the same time many people love and care for other (other does not denote lesser importance, it is not intended to by myself) animals and biological environments.It also appears as religion.If man cannot find a purpose in life, they are quite capable of creating a false purpose which fills their needs so that they can survive.Everything is ambiguous.Everything is.Meaning cannot be summed up in one sentence.It is the nature of human existence that man must face this precept and try and find their place in the world, even if they hide from reality and escape to do so and survive.Humans can create great things, yet we can also destroy them mercilessly.A great metaphor from the movie "The End of Evangelion" is where Shinji sits in a sandpit as a child and he builds a sandcastle which he loves.Then when nobody is there to see it, he knocks it down, starts to cry, and begins to make it all over again.This is a great metaphor for life.The world is mankinds playground, and we will do with it as we wish, because we can.Ultimately it may be man that destroys mankind and the world (negative and morbid as this may seem to many, believe what you will, be as you will), and at the same time there will be many people whose desire it was not for such to happen.The world is full of infinite desires too (too demeans this).Mankind seeks to control the very means of life for our own purposes.Everything is ambiguous, everything is.Such is the engrossing and infinite tale that is existence, experienced by us as humans in our many forms (mental).To divulge part of myself, the things I enjoy in life are many.From this website alone you can see that I like anime and Squaresoft.I enjoy them because they are a piece of human creation which I consider beautiful and well representative of what it is to be human or of what humans can create.I enjoy Evangelion for it's great story of human emotion and determinism, as well as it's tale of human failure and weakness.I enjoy it's music, a blend of mellowness, happiness, and classical such as Johann Sebastian Bach's Air.I also enjoy the story of Xenogears, as it represents the ability of humans to create a fantasy world, to dream and create artistic beauty.I appreciate it's music too.I also love the artistic style of anime, particularly ones such as Escaflowne.I appreciate Squaresoft games for much the same reasons.Besides these I enjoy looking at the sky, day or night, I enjoy walking in the rain (it is a perception that rain is 'bad' and makes you sad), I enjoy observing existence, and I enjoy being a part of it all.I enjoy walking around with my 'friends' in the world, or on my own, or surrounded by strangers, and knowing all the above and more.I appreciate the uniquness, yet sameness, of each humans experiences within the world, I appreciate animals, geography, thought, the universe, goodness, badness, everything.I accept and appreciate everything as part of infiniteness, believe me or not, it's up to you, and I experience existence in the area I came to be in.I will experience existence and all it has to offer, and then I will die.I will stop now.I will finish, this piece of writing, by saying that everything is, accept all things and possibilities, and if you don't you all still exist as does everything. Everything is ambiguous and infinite.I won't say I hope my thoughts as expressed above help you in life, because I don't hope for that, and at the same time I do.I will however say they may help you in life.My parting message is, be. Because I am.

Reminds me of the lyrics to "Albequrque" by Weird Al